It's a dilemma....
On one hand, I have a burning desire to become more 'self aware', to get back to my 'Warrior-Sage' outlook on life. Back to where I was many years ago, before all this crap enveloped my soul. To the place where I was at 'one' with myself. And not only with myself, but with the earth, and nature, and.... well you know. Not really a hippie per-say, but someone more open to the universe and all that is on offer, spiritually and mentally.
All the while knowing for me to do that, I'll have to truly open up. To figuratively open my chest and let my demons tear me down to nothing, a bare shell, a blank canvas to rebuild on.
And yeah, that's as fuckin' scary as it sounds. There's a LOT of demons in there.... and they're fuckin' hungry.
On the other hand, I could just close everything off.... fortify the crumbling wall that surrounds me. At least that way, I can keep the demons at bay. Along with anything and everyone else. I've done it before. You get resilient and self reliant real quick.
I'm kinda halfway there at this very moment actually. Rebuilding the shattered soul that was once known as 'Wulfe Ryder'. And this is where it get tricky. I've been the 'Sage', and I've been the 'Recluse'.... and I was happy with being either.... In both were good times and bad, the ups and downs. BUT, I also knew that either was strong enough to withstand whatever stood in my path.
As it stands at this current moment in time....
A rope looks like a good option....
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